Part 1: Pulses from the heart, a trilogy for Christmas

A dear friend, Dr. Elna Nidea Chia, posted on our high school batch online chat network, an intimately erudite exchange I call, “Conversation with God”. This thought-provoking piece carries no author’s name, she said.  She shared it because it struck a special chord in her heart, as it struck mine.  In reading it – humbly, I hear God’s strong, compassionate and loving voice, speaking to a broken world cradled in all the beauty and splendor He created it with.  He speaks to a broken heart, not really broken, but just “breaking through and becoming.”

It is my hope that this precocious piece, spiritually captivating and stirring, can inspire contemplation, soul searching and help prepare hearts as we anticipate the celebration of the glorious birth of Jesus, son of God, during this 4th week of Advent.

A conversation with God:

Me: Hey God.

GOD: Hello…..

Me: I’m falling apart. Can you put me back together?

GOD: I would rather not.

Me: Why?

GOD: Because you aren’t a puzzle.

Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground?

GOD: Let them stay there for a while. They fell off for a reason. Take some time and decide if you need any of those pieces back.

Me: You don’t understand! I’m breaking down!

GOD: No – you don’t understand. You are breaking through. What you are feeling are just growing pains. You are shedding the things and the people in your life that are holding you back. You aren’t falling apart. You are falling into place. Relax. Take some deep breaths and allow those things you don’t need anymore to fall off of you. Quit holding onto the pieces that don’t fit you anymore. Let them fall off. Let them go.

Me: Once I start doing that, what will be left of me?

GOD: Only the very best pieces of you.

Me: I’m scared of changing.


Me: Becoming who?

GOD: Becoming who I created you to be! A person of light and love and charity and hope and courage and joy and mercy and grace and compassion. I made you for more than the shallow pieces you have decided to adorn yourself with that you cling to with such greed and fear. Let those things fall off of you. I love you! Don’t change! Become! Become! Become! Become who I made you to be. I’m going to keep telling you this until you remember it.

Me: There goes another piece…

GOD: Yep. Let it be.

Me: So…I’m not broken?

GOD: No – but you are breaking like the dawn. It’s a new day. Become!!

Author Unknown


[Dr. Elna Nidea Chia, a respected obstetrician/gynecologist and community leader, is a staunch advocate for projects of compassion that serve the poor children and their families in Naga City (Philippines) and surrounding areas.  With the heartwarming support of Batch’ 63 of the University of Santa Isabel, Naga, she has spearheaded, for numerous years, feeding the poor children, distributing goods and food to the needy, and recently organizing the community pantry that served several hundreds of disenfranchised families of Naga and neighboring towns, a humanitarian endeavor sponsored by USI Batch ‘63 in conjunction with the alumni association of Santa Isabel.  Elna’s charitable efforts and mission are abetted by encouraging, generous donations from friends/batchmates in Naga, other cities in the Philippines, US and Canada.  Importantly, on the batchmates’ online chat message board, Elna is a source of spiritual reminders, expository of scriptural verses nourishing to the soul. Elna – a woman of heart, determined in ways, relentless in purpose, humble in disposition. A blessing.]

Linda P. Jacob